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So Long, all. It’s Time to Call It Off.

While I had originally planned to write a few more posts, going so far as drafting a handful of wrap up pieces to tie up loose ends, I honestly just couldn’t bring myself to finish them.

So, rather than prolong the process, putting on a big show or searching for excuses to hang onto something that I am no longer passionate about, I feel like it’s just time to simply say goodbye. I mean, if you’re not interested in, or excited about, what you’re writing… then what’s the point?

No need for a fanfare.

No need for any any huge, long-winded, multi-part memoir pieces.

I found derby on a whim, covering a Lil’ Chicago Roller Derby recruitment night in my hometown of Moose Jaw for the local paper. Then quickly fell head over heels in love with it which led to a crazy odyssey of meeting thousands of people, refereeing the RDAC Canadian nationals, taking part in some pretty huge regional tournaments, starting an award winning blog that has seen over 300,000 visitors, officiating over a hundred bouts, coaching a team for half a season, coming out of the closet as pansexual & trans, and meeting the love of my life, who I have been happily married to for nearly a year.

My 3-years in derby provided me with amazing memories that will certainly remain with me for the rest of my life.

If you would like to keep up with some of my writing, I can be found writing the occasional piece over at Planet Transgender. Other than that, I honestly just plan to float around contributing some writing to a variety of sites and blogs. I’m currently eyeing up Autostraddle and Everyday Feminism, if they’ll have me that is. Anything I end up doing will be shared on my personal Facebook page and Twitter page as they come along. If you’re in Saskatchewan, you may also see me out at political events or pride celebrations across the province as I’m heavily involved in trans activism and I’m currently serving as the Gender Diversity Representative of Moose Jaw Pride. And feel free to toss me an email at nillinnow@gmail.com if you ever want to say hi and/or chat!

Finally, as an FYI, several of the menu and static pages that are no longer relevant have been deleted while al of the important and/or most popular posts will remain untouched.  I also plan to purge some old, irrelevant blog posts as well and I will be closing commenting on all posts within the next couple of weeks. Additionally, the Derby Frontier Facebook page and Twitter account will both be deleted at some random point in the next bit. The blog itself will no longer be generating any new content and will now serve solely as an archive.

Thank you to all those who spoke with me for posts and to all of the photographers who allowed me to include their work in pieces (specifically, to Rob Vida Photography and MJS Photographics, who shared more than their fair share of pictures). Also, a HUGE thank you to my partner, Falon ‘EZ Bruiser’ Dennison, and my best friend, Hannah ‘Willkillsome’ Wilkinson, for being there right by my side through the years and for all of the help with blog maintenance.

Additionally, thank you to Lil Chicago Roller Derby for being the league that introduced me to the sport and was home for the vast majority of my time in derby, to Redneck Betties for being the first league I ever officiated for (as well as having me back so many times afterward), and to Pile O’Bones Derby Club for introducing me to so many great friends.

Finally, thank you to everyone who stuck it out and continued to read my ramblings; as well as to all of you who I have met, skated with, officiated with, partied with, traveled with, and grew with throughout the past few years. You were all a part of my journey in one way or another. I hope you are all doing well and taking care. Perhaps we shall meet again in a different place, at a different time.

This is Nillin Dennison, aka Kevlar, aka Kevy Petting, calling it off for the final time. Take care, all.